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Miserableatbest

Words and keeping distance from you has always served as my armor, whenever I used to have a temple of thoughts and unfathomable feelings for you, I just used it to hide myself. But now a days these words has started plucking my sheaths of oblivions. Now a days I write with a fragile hand, with a heart up my sleeves, with Uncountable emotions behind every stretched words I write. Now a days my every efforts to distance myself fails, because those hazel eyes of yours has pierced every dust and atom of my body and those heart palpitating smile of yours has settled inside my heart and now you’re flowing in every single nerve.

Having a claustrophobic mind I was afraid to await so much at closed places, and now I wait at the closed beautiful heart of yours. Interplay of situations beautiful isn't it? But somehow my dream sprung a leak and now all my intentions has been washed away. Sinned that what I’m now because the frantic inside me have fallen in love with you and it know no other way. Deviling deeper slowly and steadily withering the every last single bit of reality the enticing you, and now all my specs of soul are distraught. They no longer are bounded by fate to be together. Each one of them disperses and gets carried away by the currents towards you because you need to simplify things to the extent they cease existing. Convenience addicted that you are.
If you are a moth, you are bound to be attracted towards flame, having the knowledge that flame is usually dangerous for you does not seem to have an impact on your approach, instead knowing that you are an enlightened moth makes you more vulnerable to flame in a sense that no mind can fathom-that's human nature for us-complex yet so mystically engaging. And so was that moment when I was cradled in love, I was doomed, struck hard by the arrow of beast with the bow who pretends to be an angel. I wonder what people saw in that monster that they came to calling him 'Cupid'. Cupid???Are you kidding me? Isn't that a way too cute for a creature of his barbarism? First trapping innocent happy souls, lulling them into a world of alternate existence and then ruining their present. Anyways, I knew I had fallen his prey.  “And there was left nothing which I could fought, all I wanted was an escape.” I knew I was the stupid moth beholding my flame that is bound to incinerate me to a pile of ash sooner or later. But life lies in living and cherishing the moment, so off my eyes went for their trip. Stupid windows pane, they tend to fix their gaze on every entity that threatens my existence, because you will never know, what I think inside me and neither will, I know what you think about me, perhaps I gazed upon the star that was still unborn, the star of our togetherness, You, Me Coexisting as the world spins madly on.

Lulling myself into a virtual realm,
bounded to you with an invisible lace,
why didn't I have a heart I can cheat?
This stupid thing loves you more with every beat
This stupid thing some time makes a silent moan
because inside me surges a mighty teary cyclone  
why I fail to cast myself into another mould,
waiting for you to pronounce my life
Why I see you, my eyes when I close?
When not to drift to you, neither of them knows..
But one day I will fly
away from you
just like what you do.


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  1. So writing after a while and with a bang Ankur..Simply Flawless...Kinte Door Kitne Paas type..Abe Pyar nahi bhi karna caho to ho hi jati hai... :)

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    1. Thanks.. :) wo to hai . Pyar ho hi jaata hai .. but ek saath ek said jade sai Jo ho jaata hai wo problem karta hai :d :p ;)

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    2. Lol..Control Kar le ek se jyada ke saath hone wale ko pyar nahin bimari kehte hai.. :P

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  2. Agree with Harsha completely! and your reply makes me think: what is brewing here/! :)
    Great write up and lines Ankur. Keep writing.

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    1. hahaha .. that comment :D .. Thank you :) yeah always !

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  3. I too agree .btw just answer my one question if I'm not wrong every post that I have read has one thing in common "Hazel Eye". than how could it be more than one girl .. ? :p :>) what to say about your writing as always you write with so much feelings .. definitely the girl of your life will always be lucky / :)

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    1. is there only one who has hazel eye :P ? Thank you :) luckiness will be mutual :)

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  4. so love's indeed in the air!! this is the 4th straight love tale/poem i've read today, and me thinks bloggers are wearing their heart on their sleeves this week!! a great piece as always Ankur!! so when's the unveiling of the mystery eyes happening?

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    1. i guess climate has their effect :D .. Thank you :) that unveiling part is dependent part ;)

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  5. Straight from the heart it seems. Superbly written :)

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  6. Looks like someone is terribly in love. Beautiful post. Loved the way you have written this prose.

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    1. terribly and miserably :D .. Thank you :)

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  7. Wow simply superb. do I have anyother word? :)
    Aha... here he comes.. a terrible and a miserable lover boy.. ;) :D

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    1. Thank you :) word that a complicated thing :D .. lover boy :P

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  8. As always straight from heart?

    P S. Didn't see you much Offlate? Did you truly disappear or just it's me who missed reading your posts?

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    1. yup :D .. there was some unavoidable circumstances !

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  9. Uffo! Is bande pe Khuda Reham kare! Ye toh gaya bechaara pyaar ki gandi naali mein! [-(

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    1. ya Allah .. is baachi ki dua sun lo :) ..pyaar mai nahi hu .. bas writeup hai ..n pyaar ki gandi naali :-? seriously you call it so ?

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    2. Aameen! :) Yup! Pyaar ki gandi nali... :p bahut dangerous hai... [-(

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    3. :p :p .. meri dua hai is bandi ko koi jaldi sai is so nali mai gira de .. phir puchenge gandi naali :p

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