TANGLED VIBES

I am just A Wanderer with a thought Nothing’s magnificent about it I throw out my prose at people Hoping to find someone who might tag along It gets lonely walking all alone With the burden of words Meant for someone Thrown around to everyone In dire hopes that someone Might just accompany me On this wild, drug infested goose chase Maybe I have more words with me Than I could ever imagine The way I cough them out Like the blood I threw up Over the weekend But then again They are never meant for someone Anyone Are they? With the desk lamp glowing dim With every yank of paper from scribbled notebook Crumpled up and thrown with other rejects Slaying myself over the perfect piece To win you over You might think they’re just words I wrote up I do that a lot, write stuff up But it’s pretty different this time I never sought perfection before And now, I only want the best for you But let’s be honest I’m not magn...

One fragment of thought, sparks the flame  tearing through my veins, soon become a conflagration Burning within a desire to create a masterpiece,  to excel, for one time, never cease  Waking up every morning, with a flicker of inspiration Walking thru the burning Pyre, falling, failing, trying to shape my dream, sometime selling  it in lieu of better dreams but every time I see reality as a fault of my dreams Truth seems to be an ally of stuff  forbidden Where shall I begin my search for thou? Which Road to travel, to make a difference? So many question, whose answer   exist as a shadow of reality determined to cleaves this interstellar gloom Moving on, but every time  I watch miles on the end,  Meet Jaded me and the emptiness

Image Credit : Google I never knew what an eye can do and now I'm here waiting Waiting just for you Watching the sky turn Light Blue Wondering what it's like being next to you Missing you with every passing moment of the day without any clue of you sitting here waiting waiting just for you every second feeling you in my heart even when you are worlds apart Cluelessly hoping someday you will answer me Cluelessly waiting waiting just for you because I love every little thing that you do because Cluelessly I'm falling even more in love with you..

Image credit :- Google न जाने क्यू  यादो मे तेरे चेहरे की परछाई आज भी है ख़ामोशी मे तेरे आवाज की गुनगुनाहट आज भी है न जाने क्यू तन्हाई मे तेरे धडकनों की आहात आज भी है  तेरे साथ दो कदम चलने की चाहत आज भी है न जाने क्यू हर लम्हे तेरी एक झलक की बेताबी आज भी है पलकों को तेरे ही तसवुर की आदत आज भी है  न जाने क्यू तेरे साँसों मे सिमट जाने की ख्वाइश आज भी है हर पल तुझे दिल तोड़ जाने की इजाजत आज भी है 

काश मै ऐसा कुछ लिख पाता जो तेरे अश्कों को मोतियों मै बदल पाता काश फिर सारी रात तेरी पलकें देखता और सब कुछ भुला देता काश रूठ जाती मुझसे तू, फिर लफ़्ज़ों से तुझे मना पाता काश कसक लफ्जों से तेरे लबों को अपने लबों से मिला पाता काश तेरी उदासी मे इन्द्रधनुष के रंग मै तेरी तस्वीर मे भर पाता काश अपने शब्दों से संग तेरे लिए सावन हल्का सा ला पाता काश अल्फाजों की चांदनी से तेरे जुल्फों के बादल हटा पाता काश चार पंक्तियाँ लिखता और तुझको मैं खुद मे समां पाता

Part 1 I stood on the shore alone My Mind soul everything lost gone Tears streaming down my face The pale pinkish sun’s rays dazzling on the sea’s surface Was it fleeting away evening of that day Or the quietly, shrinking away evening of my life on the bay A black marked envelope lay beside me on the sandy ground Once again, I went through the letter that was clasped in my hand I closed my eyes and prayed for the better. My soul was wrung each time. As these thought rang in my mind. ‘Thought’-that bring me close to tears Once I thought you were perfect and mine friend Your smiling face, your gentle touch Your every word mattered to me so much This was the time I lived a beautiful lie. But the truth uncovered itself As the year went by . Part 2 I hate it that I loved you I hate that you make me cry But once you were my life This I can’t deny. I’m not sure you know But once a long time ago I saw something in you “Now You are so Empty that I can see...

जब-2 तेरी यादो का साया लहराया मन मे हर बार बस एक ही ख़याल आया क्यू तेरी झील सी आखो से सिवा ये दिल कही और खोता नही क्यू तुझको देखे वग़ैर मेरा सुबह होता नही क्यू मेरी हर सांस मे है तेरा हिस्सा क्यू तेरे बिना ये ज़िंदगी है बस एक क़िस्सा क्यू तेरा वो बेपरवाह रहना और आखो से सब कहना तसाउर मे एहसास बन कर आता है क्यू ये एहसास हर बार मुझको तेरे पास ले जाता है वही तेरा मुस्करता चेहरा और बिखरा बिखरा मन बेकरारी मे भी करार दे जाता है जब-2 तेरी यादो का साया लहराया ना जाने क्यू वो तेरा हसीन साया घुलकर फ़िज़ा के आँचल मे तन्हाई मे भी एक खूबसूरत सज़ा दे जाता है !

आज एक ख्याल आया फिर बरबस इस दिल मैं, तनहा फिर हुआ मै भरी महफ़िल मैं. सोचा तू है एक उदासी या किसी की अधूरी ग़ज़ल, या मेरी ही तन्हाई का महज़ एक रुक हुआ पल. शर्मीला हो गया चाँद, बुरखे मैं बाहें अब बादल, दर्द इश्क मै देखा इतना , जितना विधवा की पलकों का बहता काजल. सुनाई कविता किसी तारे ने चांदनी को, हो गयी वो उसकी कायल, चाँद भी हो गया जब अकेला , बेदर्द दर्द भी हुआ तब घायल. रातों मै बिछ गयी रुसवाई , जब दिलों मै आई बेवफाई, इश्क चाँद से ही था चांदनी को , जाने क्यूँ लफ़्ज़ों मै न कह पाई. अश्क बहते हैं आज तक उसके,हम कहते उन्हें चाँद के दाग, इश्क हुआ था सदियों पहेले उसे, लगी है आज तक एक आग. सदियों तक बहें उसकी पलकें , भर गए सात समंदर, खोयी वही चांदनी है तू, इस चाँद सा मेरा दिल का मंज़र

Walking thru the wintertime when the stars all shine I had seen the sunshine perhaps that was smile on your pretty face that always fooled me as i fell for an eye that played a game out the name that used to make me glad has now painted me black and now I'm backstepping Because I want you to stay as an angel of my life So now I'm backstepping to left all these things behind to melt everything of you inside my mind So now I'm backstepping to stop you to seep in thru my blinds to erase you off my mind even one time Words that has fallen thru me Is trying to reach you out what will it take to make it a count?  Captured by smeared kohl of your eyes controlled by the beautiful lies thought someday you will be mine and will stay forever with time and now I'm backstepping because I want you to stay as an angel of my life so now I'm backstepping to left all these things behind to melt everything of you inside my mind So now ...

The number of days doesn't count large By number When the last time I saw Your pretty face Your smile full of grace But now the number count Feels to be uncountable It’s seems too long When seeing your face I felt the warm rush of blood Flowing inside me like a flood Too long when the staring silence Has made me so cold Too long when looking into Reflecting pool of your eyes I felt so lost And now I want to feel this again All I want to see you again The number of days doesn’t count large By number When the last time I saw Your pretty face But now the number count Feels to be too long Especially when everyday You're the one i miss When everyday I fail to give exactness to your silhouette Especially now when I have realised It wasn’t that I was waiting for you It is you who started ALL THE WAITING in my life ALL I want to feel  this again ALL I want to see you again I know next time things aren't g...

                                        Sometime I smiled Thinking of your smiling face And every day I wait for a glimpse of it Sometime I worried seeing your woeful face And every time I put a spell on the reason for it And pray for  your better Sometime thinking of you Made me dreamy Sometime thinking of you Make me dreary Your nearby presence Give me reason to cherish In your absence I feel my world is perish Sometime I shiver with ecstasy Remembering …. The warmth Of your first glance And sometime I shiver with fear Of agony of losing you Sometime it feels Months, seasons, years are rolling into decades Waiting for you While sometime it seems Hope becoming sentry of timelessness Hope of one day The same way you will feel Is making the hands of time stand still And this SOMETIME Is SEGMENT Of every moment, of my life...

Without you I confess Even at the roof top Listening those pop Seems lifeless, Beatles I don’t know why things Are so much messed I am so much biased Or have I become addicted Of you I don’t have any clue Without you Nothing seems going right My mind remain engaged in fight Always with my heart Even the colorful world seems black and white And everything that passes me Seems flashing like a faint light Or have I become addicted Of you I don’t have any clue Without you This silence Seems a violence And every truth seems a tale In which every word has became pale And every day is like a burning flame Or have I become addicted Of you I don’t have any clue Without you It doesn't matter with whom and where I am Everywhere I find myself alone Like everything has lost and gone Or have I become addicted Of you I don’t have any clue Without you In cold moonless night The distant bright Star that one...

Seeking for you Without any clue Like ones chase their dream Which hasn’t come true? Yes you are my dream untold Don’t know what future hold Hoping somewhere in future ‘We’ stand holding each other hand Where “we” word means more Than “I” and “You” Somewhere where walking on path of air I can see your face everywhere Somewhere where togetherness Fills our world With the Joy and love That’s flow from our heart seeing above Lilting the lamp of life in each other heart With a glow that we follow That speak a language that we know Yeah that’s a thought unspoken Or my imagination I can’t figure that out But it’s a feeling deep inside Which always poke me like a tide Yes you are my dream untold Which I want to hold back In my life as you are in my thought In my heart and eye Yes you are completing the Greatest story which is incomplete Story which ‘we’ will write In which our love Is the most important part Just waiti...

Look what your beautiful eye Are doing They are making fool of me So can I request you something Quit playing those eye game As I am really getting tame To your this game And the truth is difficult to frame There is intoxication In your every gaze And its hangover is enough to fade Me into you So can I request you something Quit playing those eye game As I don’t want to be My heart maze This is making me insane As I am really getting tame To your this game And the truth is difficult to frame Look what your beautiful eye Are doing They are making fool of me So can I request you something Quit playing those eye game As I don’t want to Make my heart lame Gaining a pain which has no name Quit playing those eye game Even thou it isn’t my inner scream But I don’t want to get a dream Which will melt like an ice-cream And the truth is difficult to frame So can I request you something Quit playing those eye game Nothing will ever be same As I am really...

Feelings I'm sorry As I'm always in fight With you For making my heart on the loose Without leaving any option Which i can choose I can't stop your deeper growing rout Neither I can let you out Nor do I can express you To one For whom you care the most What if you got treated like a host Because if you will fall behind I can't pick you up And give one more try Feeling I am sorry For pleading you to hush because I don't have any notion How to subdue Your excited commotion tide like flow neither I can keep your given emotion low It becoming difficult to keep you hide But I can't let you out Even you fill me with so much simper and joy What if you got treated like a toy? With whom people will play and enjoy Why don't you subside? Because I can't let you out Nor do I can express you To one For whom you care the most What if you got treated like a host Because if you will fall behind I can't pick you up And give o...

  I wish I could tell you Whenever I see you How really I feel What you really mean To me I wish I could tell you I wish I could tell you The way you make me feel Whenever I see you each day Even if you sit so far away I wish I could tell you I was happily moving alone But now that happiness has gone After the day I saw you Because your eye made Me realize how much fade That happiness can be said I wish I could tell you That even your slender smile Makes me smile too Provoking my heart ripples Unto a warm feeling That runs through my blood Just like a flood I wish I could tell you Someday face to face That you hold a special place Within not only my heart But within me even I wish I could tell you How really I feel I wish I could tell you

I put my hand in the fire, now I’m burned Obviously my heart will also burn sometime have learned my lesson so I wouldn’t complain I made mistakes but there's no one to blame Knowing there's no way to change, No way to stop the pain That had now taken the Shape of silence within me. I thought that was good for me Now Pain is not there but gone But I never had that clue That this silence Will always make me blue. Now Silence has taken the shape Of amoeba within me, No matter where I go, What I do How happy I am It seems to persist within me And always gush through my mind.

O heart, o heart How did it feel to you? When you have to tell so much Without any words To someone Who is your everyone O heart, o heart How did it feel to you? When the person turns away From you the other way Seeing whom you was once Ignited with a warm feelings Now they become cold to you O heart, o heart How did it feel to you? When your love seems lost And will never return to you But you only have those most Lovely memories inside you O heart, o heart How did it feel to you? When everything rips apart And around you it’s all dark When out of hundred you need only one But that only one has left you all alone O heart, o heart Please answers me

I don’t know what and whom I am searching for On which way I am going What I have gained What I have lost I don’t know the answer On the path of journey Journey of my life Is there someone whom I am missing Or it’s a just a feeling of my lonely heart I don’t know the answer For what I see in dream Do truly they have deep meanings Meaning that are never clear The meanings can hurt Giving scars to heart Will these scars will decorate my life I don’t know the answer I am happy and fine But why my heart isn’t filled With happiness Devine Why I find myself a stranger in mirror even? What had happened to me I don’t know the answer.

Do you remember the day You left me standing Against the world And lost in your way . Its been so long That I almost forget Then why you not . Even now every time I remember My cheeks got all wets Though for you it’s not the same Decision you made that cold night Not for me but for you was right. And I was left with some fright Fright of being alone again As it was nothing remain Same after the jiffy you left That what I felt. Word heard earlier was same But now its meaning has changed. My entire Dream has stunted Together with that my feelings also blunted. There was time Which for me was felicitous But now time Has changed and icon replaced And our fervent love also changed As it was nothing remain After the jiffy you left Something which never bothered us Seem to devour our hearts today The tenderness which clung of love Is left far, far away And when I turn my head Look back to watch again The iron foundation of our relations I found nothing bu...